Today

I love the first Sunday of every month! I may be one of very few people that really do. I love that for one day out of the month I can go all day without eating and not get the headache that would usually be lurking around the corner somewhere after a missed morning snack because It is the one day that I can stop thinking mostly about myself, (because I really am a selfish person) and focus all my love and concern for other people.

After a ward wide email from our bishop, I woke up this morning prepared to fast and pray for a very special family that is battling a second round of chemotherapy and anyone else who might be fighting their own hidden battles.

It wasn't until I got to church that I realized how many of those other people I really was fasting and praying for.

A family deeply in mourning for the tragic loss of their son-in-law just this morning, A dear friend struggling with difficult health issues, another friend who seems to just be going through one of those rough patches, and many others who are struggling silently.

So, I took to heart the article in the ensign that Josh showed me this morning called toothpaste on the mirror If you haven't read it yet, you should. It's very short and a great reminder of what's really important.

And I decided to try to do everything I could today to be a better person.

So, today I played a silly game with two of my kids because they are so hungry for any attention I give them.

Today, instead of just smiling at people in the hall as I walked by, I said "Hello" and called them by name.

Today, I worried more about what I could learn in church than what I would wear to church.

Today I reached out to give a loving touch to a man I hardly know because he is suffering

Today I put aside some major insecurities about being judged and criticized and signed up for the ward talent show.

Today I poured out my heart to the Lord and wept with gratitude for all the blessing I have been given, but feel so unworthy of.

Today I was truly happy!